I am back

Oh my God....It's been 4 years now that I had not get any chance to write here. Too many things has been happening ...my life was a roller-coaster.

Professional life....changing job and gave up to work for others. Been running my own business in the work skills that I enjoy the most. Steady but hopefully will get better over a time.Italian saying "Ognuno e artefice della propria vita" - which means we are control of our destiny and here we go...I took the step. 

Personal life...I am single again. It's kind of mixed feelings after 9 solid years in the relationship. In some way I feel scared of the absolute freedom I have and in some way I feel happy that I have the freedom to plan anything in my life without any interfere from anyone. Mmmmhhhh......but so far I enjoy it after struggled to accept the fact my relationship was ended in shame for months...but heyyyy...it's better to happen now then another 9 years later. 

The kids....they're grown up. Christma will be in Senior High School in 2 months time. She's starting to date and also follow his brother spreading his charming. Ulala....

The most important now is focusing in one of time of the priorities I make...the list is not too long but it's really give me pressure. Anyhow I have to cope with it and back to basic..."come ti fai il letto, cosi dormirai" 

Got to go now but will be back soon. Mwwahhhh

K'ching

One morning in early 90’s, I picked up a girl magazine on a school library rack. As a flipped page by page uninterested on what beauty product advertisements were and how should a girl put make up all over her face so a boy could be her date…suddenly my eyes caught an angel face on celebrity section. That was the most gorgeous boy I’ve ever seen in my life… His name is Leonardo Dicaprio. I was falling in love on that black and white picture!! I ripped the page and I hung the picture on my room. I believe I would see him often as in real life. I was right. Today, twenty years later, million dollars per movie, another few pounds gaining weight and his name becoming larger than life, I still do adore him.

Talking about twenty years time flies, many things happen. Celebrities come and go, some become a truly star, earn than a queen and some are trapping in their own world, earn enough to get by. The question is…are the celebrities worth that much money? Isn’t that too much?

My answer is why not. Celebrities earn much money because someone would pay them that amount. I would say yes if someone would pay me billion dollars for a movie. I think anybody just love to play being a god and goddess, right? A massive palace, more than fingers cars to ride, having the best spot on earth, first class treatment and chosen life they fancy.

Are the celebrities keeping the money for themselves? After all the needs provided, all the luxury things owned, many celebrities involve into charity organization and share their wealth to others. Not only humanitarian society, but they also becoming pioneers on save the earth campaign. Leonardo Dicaprio as example earning US$45 million per movie, but take a look what he has been spending on helping the unfortunate and donating to the save the earth campaign. He donated $35,000 towards the “Leonardo DiCaprio Computer Center” at the Los Feliz branch of the Los Angeles Public Library, he generously donate to World Wildlife Fun US$ 1 million dollar to save tigers, he donated US$ 300 thousand dollar for eco charity, he has made several films to educate the public about environmental issues; including 11th Hour, he founded Leonardo Dicaprio Foundation, he worked and donated hundred thousand dollars to orphan children in Mozambique, Africa and many more. Obviously, Leonardo is not keeping his money for himself.

            We pretty much know that life for celebrities is not cheap. Besides they are expected become a physically flawless and multi-talented human being, they have to play as a God themselves. Being powerful, righteous, generous, ubiquitously, eternal, inspire a wisdom and some are worship them. So, who doesn’t want to be a celebrity with tons of money and play like a God? If Leonardo Dicaprio would do it, why wouldn’t I? At the end, how much is too much, anyway?

IF ONLY...

"According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with 4 arms, 4 legs a head and 2 faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them into two separate parts, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other halves."

I CAN’T STOP THINKING ABOUT WHAT WOULD HAVE HAPPENED IF WE HADN’T GIVEN UP ON EACH OTHER...

Our Little Mission

I don’t want to be so philosophical about what I want to write tonight, just because I realized something after I watched couple of comedy movies; The Odd Couple II and What Planet Are You From?

I haven’t got any chance to stop and wonder why I was here or what was my reason for being on this world at this time or even what is the meaning of life until I watched and laughed my ass off on that movies. I didn’t see the big picture what I was doing…and the funniest of all, I am 30. Yeah…big three and clueless. Is anyone out there has the same concern thought like I do? I hope so…or I’m going to be the most mindless human and there you go another list on my off-putting personality…

Tracy Crowe once said that, “It turns out that the meaning of your life is whatever you decide it is. Unfortunately most people haven't decided. They get so caught up in all the random little things. They might think that the purpose of life is to go to school and study hard, get a good job and settle down and have a family. Those are just the details. In order to get at the meaning of your life, you have to ask yourself WHY you are doing all those things. Why did you choose the career you did? Why did you choose your spouse (or not married at all)? Why did you choose to have children (or not have any)?”

And for all of that have been mentioned, being more intimate with ourselves is one key to get the answer what we really wanna be and what is worth for living. If we forgot or doesn’t have chance or even never dreamt the question like this popped inside our head, then….this is the start. A new fresh year resolution to know better what we really want to achieve and what our little mission in life is. My grandma told me that it’s never too late to get back in the right direction as long you have the strong legs to step up and get the better map J

Pour finir, je voudrais dire ... faire de beaux rêves. 

Our Bed Conversation

“To die and part is a less evil; but to part and live, there, there is the torment.” ~ George Lansdowne

I remember our conversation in bed…two of us…you and me…about us and stuff.

For whatever reason, I felt comfortable listening on your voice drifting around the room, caught up words by words…Very strange thou because we were stranger. And did I say I was listening? Wow, that must be something because usually am not that kind. I talk…am womanJ

I remember my first question there…where we lied on that bed, when we caught our breath after we fell from heaven…

“How could you be such a great kisser?”

 I saw your lips lifted formed a tiny cute smile, your fingers through my hair and I looked at you deeply begging for silly answer…it was stupid question anyway.

“Emhhhhh….practiced on every occasion with different sources makes it perfect.” You said calmly, convincing…

We laughed together. That was the most naïve and honest answer I’ve ever heard!!

Then there’s moment I want it stop there…the moment when we kissed, explored and discovered us, we fused, caught the colours, touched the sky, ran on stairs in our vein, stroked slowly, moved…flew in halfway on the garden of heaven…we sighed, I heard you whispered into my ears how it felt so good…

And when we looked into each other eyes, we knew that there’s no distance, we knew we’re in the same path to find our treasure, our jolt of joy…and when we fell, we gasped our breath, we had the strength to get back again…and again..

That’s very tiring conversation of most of all...if you notice, but we created our own language to communicate that I adore.

Then our conversation change…from bed time stories, friends’ funny joke, world history, dreams and superstition until questioning the love…

From lips kiss, butterfly kiss, forehead kiss then nothing…

From entwining in one another's arms, completely vulnerable scooping each other for little second togetherness till getting irritated of everything...

And then suddenly we lost our bed conversation…and wondering what was happened.

Life is so strange, right? It’s like mad gravitational tune…I went thru inconvenient phase of sleepless on someone else’s bed and stranger’s arms, building the confident expectation, lost on the blissful state and then…totally unable to find my clarity and intelligent in between.

I miss our first bed conversation which was so unimportant; talking about us, getting to know one another and growing ever closer, let anybody out of it..and I mean anybody…

That’s our bed…and I want us there, you and me…having conversation again about us………….and stuff...

“I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long.  If we're in each other's dreams, we can play together all night.”- Calvin & Hobbes

Good night,

Mei

Weltrusten

Hoi,  Goedenavond. Hoe is je dag?

I’ve been getting light-headed since three days ago, fainted couple of times & after seen a doctor this evening, I found out that my blood pressure is very low or in medically term it called hypotension. If anyone wondering what the heck a low blood-pressure is, please check this link http://www.medicinenet.com/low_blood_pressure/article.htm.

Well, because of those symptoms, my memory which usually as large as elephant, become shrinking like an ant. I almost forgot that tomorrow I have first day of midterm exam, Interpreting. Good thing is when you remember when your favorite football club schedule game, so you can count from itJ Thanks to Ajax!!

Talking about forgetting things, mostly when its come to the important event, I don’t have many occurrence, as long as I remember...Let's see.... I've experienced on forgetting my password, my bank card PIN, my ATM card, how to do duplex printing in second chance, how not to laughing too loud, sending message to a wrong person and as well forgetting not too drink too much so I wouldn’t forget my exam day, the subject examined, my address, my house, my room, asking wrong question…or even calling a wrong name!!ooopssss- but hey that’s understood since we know what’s getting in ours when we drinks & have so much fun, right? En dat is nou precies wat het zo leuk maakt…

I think that’s quite a lot, hey!!! Then I was full of shit when I said my memories like an elephantJ

And the only one thing is getting my nerves that I always forgetting; my keys. Don’t ask why and where I put it. I wish that one day I could cure it…at least for all these time I have someone who willing to give the copy every-time I got the key amnesia. We'll see till he's given up:) 

Now, I have to study for my exam and cross your fingers I will not forget the answers. Life’s a bitch!!

Welterusten kussen,

Mei

Good Night

Il était une fois...a little girl had the desire to have her own blog, but she was confused what she's going to write on it. Then she had weird dreams continuously that make her thought, ”Maybe, this is the signs. Do some little things to make a change.” and then the dream came true...

She chose  template's tittle for the blog was good night, since it inspired from the other world inside her...she felt like the blog was un petite chef doeuvre

On the blog, she wanted to share what had been happening with her & people around her...One her wish was that everyone to chew wisely as on it might have inconvenient content...like when she said,"Je m'en fous!!"

Je suis tout à vous,

              Mei